Slavnoj blogerici preminula trogodišnja kćerkica: Oprostila se riječima koje odišu čistom tragedijom

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Trogodišnja kćerkica popularne influenserice Ashley Stock preminula je samo nekoliko dana nakon svog rođendana, a skrhana blogerka podijelila je tužnu vijest na svom Instagram profilu. Malena Lynn Stock u aprilu je dobila dijagnozu rijetkog tumora na mozgu, a ovaj oblik bolesti ima stopu preživljavanja od 0 posto.

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Dear Stevie, it’s been one week since you took your last breath in my arms while Stevie Nicks Landslide quietly played in the background—the same song that played in the delivery room when you entered this world. Today i drive home from my first trip to the grocery store in over a month and my mama instinct still thinks you’re behind me in your seat. We’ll pass the trash trucks and fire trucks and the outline of the white moon in a blue sky. I’m waiting to hear your little voice yell out “mommy look, look. Trash truck. Fire truck. Dah moooon. So pretty”. But it’s only silence. And then I’m the mama hysterically crying at the stoplight looking in my rear view mirror at an empty bucket seat that used to house your car seat. It’s the same when i pass the diaper aisle at target and the cute little girl clothes. Or when I’m digging for my keys in my purse and pull out one of your binkies. Or the big girl bed we were ready to transition you to that sits in our garage. Everything is you. I’ve built my life and my heart around you and your brothers and while the joy still exists all around me, none of it feels even close to the same without you. Living this broken feels impossible, but baby girl, i promise I’m looking for your miracles around every corner. Even from the other side, you’re keeping me going. We’ve got work to do, hugs to give and hearts to heal. #stevielynnstock #dipg #starsforstevie #letterstostevie

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Ashley je kćerkicu odvela u bolnicu kada je primjetila da joj brzo opadaju motoričke sposobnosti. Ova 35-godišnjakinja u petak je podijelila tragične vijesti s pratiteljima na društvenim mrežama, otkrivši da je bila uz svoju kćerkicu kada je ispustila posljednji udisaj.

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🌟Stevie Lynn Stock 🌟 3 years old. Seed Planter. Miracle Maker. Light Giver. Heart Healer. Blue eyed, dimpled smile, curly haired forever baby girl. Adored little sister, daughter and friend. At 1:05pm on May 27th, Stevie took her final breath in our arms. There have been many miracles and countless God moments that I’ll put into words when my heart has strength. For now, I’m overwhelmed with relief that she’s at peace but I’m also feeling crushed by a pain so intense i can’t put it into words. I let it out a bit at a time, like when you gently twist the lid off a liter soda bottle…releasing the built up pressure little by little to keep it from exploding all over the place. I guess it’s like that. I’m twisting the lid on my grief gently. Because if i release it all at once, i don’t see how i could possibly survive. Gentleness has been my most effective approach on grief these last months, gentleness for myself and for all the beloved mourners by my side. We have complete faith in there being a greater purpose of this tragedy (and it’s already unfolding through your stories of renewed hope), but unfortunately, faith is not a “get out of pain free” card, and that’s okay. I don’t know how to do this, so for now we’ll continue one day at a time held by the grace of God, the support of loved ones and the prayers of strangers who have become friends. #stevielynnstock #dipg #starsforstevie

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– Lynn Stock 3. godine. Pravila je čuda. Davala svjetlo. Liječila srce. Sa plavim očima, osmijehom sa rupicama na obrazima, kovrdžavom kosom, zauvijek moja beba. Obožavana mlađa sestra, kćerka i prijatelj. 27. maja u 1:05 poslednji put udahnula je vazduh na našim rukama. Bilo je mnogo čuda i nebrojenih Božjih momenata koje ću pretvoriti u riječi kada moje srce skupi snage za to. Za sada, laknulo mi je što je ona u miru, ali sam i slomljena od bola koji je toliko jak da nemam riječi da ga opišem – napisala je ona između ostalog.

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Resting 🤍🤍🤍 #stevielynnstock #dipg

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Ashley se pored ovog emotivnog pisma od kćerkice oprostila i fotografijom na kojoj djevojčica u ruci drži kristalnu zvijezdu, a objavila je i snimak djevojčice dok se igra sa psićem nekoliko dana prije nego što je preminula.

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“This is my life now”. That sentence plays in my head several times daily. Sometimes i catch myself whispering it out loud. I still can’t tell if I’m phrasing it as a question or a mantra. Perhaps both. I suppose it depends on the moment. Because there are definitely times when I’m wading in peace about the new path the Lord has placed before us. But then, there are the mornings…when i wake up, and for a split second, i think this could all be a terrible nightmare and I’ll get out of bed and walk back into the life i signed up for. Then reality hits me like a punch to the gut. A lump forms in my throat and it becomes hard to swallow. Suddenly I’m torn between going back to sleep to stop the pain or rushing to scoop up my baby girl and soak up every single moment with her. I’m choosing the moments over the sleep. I can sleep later. I can breakdown later. For now, I trace the invisible line from the middle of her forehead down to the tip of her nose with my finger at least a hundred times a day. I’m memorizing the way her features relax with my touch. I’m saying silent prayers that i never forget the way her skin feels on mine. I’m smelling her salty hair and her sticky neck and her sweet little toes and wishing there was a way to bottle her scent up forever. I gently tickle her belly button and massage her head and tell her constantly that she is safe, she is loved, she is perfect, she makes me happy and I’m so proud of her. 📷: @michellebeller

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It was hard. And beautiful. And magical. And joyful. And heart wrenching. And full of so so so so much love. God was present in every detail and inspired every hand who made this Wish possible. You are all part of our family now. Make a Wish: @makeawishtricounties Planning: @festiveeventplanning Petting Zoo: Tawni's Ponies & Petting Zoo Mini Horse: @reinsofhope Floral: @creativelightdesign Balloons: @glamgarlandballoons Decor + Signs: @brownandcodesigns Charcuterie: @kimchi.avacado Cake: @susans_sweets Donuts: #bestdonutsTO Photo: @michellebeller Video: @wildwhim Food: Lampost Pizza + Wood Ranch BBQ Pool: Minidip Pool Rental: @venturarental Peppa Costume: Birthday party Characters / Character.com And my tribe of besties who poured their love into this Wish and into our family every day.

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